Friday, November 9, 2012

My Space (not the website)

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.

Like lots.

I love blogging, but the past couple of days I just haven't felt the need, the urge, the desire (woah ladies, calm down. I'm not trying to get all sensual here) to blog. And here is why:

I was all thinking, "I have to make sure that I have lots of funny posts or people won't read it." Or "I need to stop with all this soul-searching. People are gonna get bored and hate me!" (Ok, maybe a little sarcastic on the last one there.)

But the point is, I stopped writing for me and started writing for y'all. Not that I don't love you guys (Hi new followers! We're best friends now!) it is just... this is my space. You readers read because for some bizarre reason you like what I have to say (or you like to mock me, both are fine.).

So, here is what has really been going on in my mind lately:

I HATE politics. Elections suck. It tried (almost successfully) to ruin my anniversary. Luckily, I am married to THE Man, and he made it magical.

Panic attacks. Not in the "I totally panicked" kind of way. Actual, hyperventilating, room spinning, heart pounding panic attacks. I hate them. I don't want them. We're working on making them stop.
I made this and hung it up at work. It makes me happy :)
School. I have a love hate relationship right now. Love: I turned in one rockin' thesis earlier this week. It was AWESOME. Hate: I have SOOOOOO much to do for another class I am afraid I may have to dive into the depths of my homework and only immerse once it has all been completed. Good bye beautiful world...

What's with laundry? It is like a never ending, monotonous nightmare. Can someone else just fold the laundry... Please?

I am SO tired. All the time. Where did my energy go?! I don't even have kids or a cat or a goldfish. What is up self?!

Friends. I miss them. I have actual, real life, live in the same city, love them to death friends. But I am SO busy all the time... I never get to see any of them. Ever. I hardly see my own family. It makes me sad...

Stress. It just keeps coming at me from different angles. I don't like it.

Fall. The colors are so beautiful! I have loved every second of these past weeks.

Photos were taken five minutes apart.

What in the world is going on with the snowfall right now? Seriously, in the last 20 minutes I have watched the entire parking lot get absolutely covered. If it keeps this up, I don't know if I'll make it home from work. I very much so dislike snow... (and all that white, feathery madness is SNOW people. Not "a mix of wintery precipitation. Sheesh)

But in spite all of this, I have so much to be grateful for. And this week, I am incredibly grateful for my husband. I love him so much. He has done everything for me. He has made me so happy and given me a wonderful life. Even when it feels like everything is going crazy, I always have him to be thankful for.

(Linking up with: Faith Filled FridayFriday Favorite ThingsThat Friday Blog HopWomanhood With a PurposeWeekend Blog HopFeed Me FridayIt's Almost Friday Thursday Blog HopBlack Tag DiariesFirst Day Of My LifePretty Little InspirationsLink and MingleIt's Ok Thursday and Lovely Little Whimsy.)


  1. Good for you for writing for yourslef and not for anyone else. I really think blogging becomes stressful when you start worrying about what other people want to read, how much information to share etc.! And hope the panic attacks get better soon, I have suffered from anxiety too and it is so hard!

    x Ellie @ Ellalogy 

    1. Thank you! I always love your comments. And I appreciate your support :)

  2. Hi Jeannie! :) Happy Friday!! I love your honesty. My best friend and I always called it the brutal truth. It's good to be honest, especially with yourself! I feel the same way about my blog. It really is an's therapeutic sometimes just to sit down and type and let your thoughts and feelings never know who you might touch! The comments and readers can also be really encouraging. Thanks for sharing, hope you have a blessed day :)

    1. Honesty is the best policy, right? Thank you for taking the time to comment and show your support. I love making new friends! And it most definitely is the "brutal truth".

  3. I'm so sorry you aren't feeling the need to write or that you've been writing for others. I love reading whatever you write! I look forward to each post and what you have to say! I don't know how to help you gain your desire back but I want you to know that you are an amazing author and your insights have helped me tremendously! I'm so sorry life is so crazy for you at the moment! I know you're strong enough to handle anything that comes your way! love ya! you're awesome!

  4. Just stumbled across your blog! I felt the same way you did not too long ago... Not feeling motivated to blog mainly because I didn't have anything "good" to blog about. Or what I really wanted to blog about, I felt would be boring to read. But, then I realized that I ultimately got into blogging for ME and if others want to read it, great! If some others don't want to, thats okay, but i'm going to continue blogging for ME! :) Hope that all those famous thoughts come back to you soon!

    Sorry you're having a hectic and stressful time! Unfortunately, I don't have any amazing words for you because i'm currently struggling as well in that area! :)

    But, i'm your newest follower! :)